November Beauty Favorites


Considering I’m very lazy this month (and probably until the end of the year), the amount of beauty products I use daily has been decreased. I rarely use eyeshadows currently, wonder why.

  • NYX blush in Ethereal; just got this not so long ago, but it has been in my make up bag every single day. It has the right amount of pinkness and the right amount of shimmer to give such a good glow. When applied with fluffly synthetic angled brush, it can never be too much. It’s always ok to fall in love with one or two shades of NYX blushes 🙂
  • L’oreal Voluminous Carbon Black Mascara (waterproof); I’ve had this about two months now, and it’s pretty good to blacken (is that a word?) my lashes and hold the curl. Some time ago this failed me as I experienced black smudging under my eyes, but I think that was because I bought the non-waterproof one. Never made the same mistake again.
  • MAC lipstick and matching lipglass in Hoop; I was drawn to the fact that MAC made matching lipglasses for their existing lipstick shades, at that time this kind of “safe” pink shade was the best to suit me. Who doesn’t love a matching pair of lipstick & gloss? The pink is just a bit darker than NYX blush as you can see in the picture, but they’re in the same color family & undertone (heyya, warm skinned ladies), makes them a good combo for the blush too.
  • Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick Creme in 668 Primrose; honestly, first thing that went through my mind when I saw this was it shares the same name with Katniss’ sister, Primrose Everdeen, haha… Still in the color family of pink, but this one leans cooler. I don’t have many similar colors like this in my stash, so let’s keep it! It proves that it’s useful for my cool-and-calm-pink-but-mysterious-barbie lip look. 😀 And I never thought that Super Lustrous lipstick texture can be so good. It’s really creamy and non-drying. Lovely.

Let’s hope December will bring more excitement especially to beauty stuffs, holiday sale and deals should be so crazy! I’m always into pink lips but I would like to try more eyeshadow colors and techniques. My eye make up is boring.



I Have to Write This…

…or I will die dreaming about it through and through and not be able to get it out.

So, I traveled to one of the island which is famous for its scuba diving spot. Went there from the capital city using a cruise. I was pretty happy because I got good seat and did not get seasick. The problem started when this big fat politician-looking man came and claimed that the seat I was sitting on is his. He insisted to sit there, using forceful words and forceful tone, even instructed me to move my things. In exactly the next minute the cabin crew explained that it was right the seating numbers, but it was too late as he already sat on it (my seat!). It was too late that he already got what he wanted. (It was too late that I realized that I didn’t fight hard enough to something that should be mine)

“Kursi nomor berapa?”


“Ini barang siapa?”

“Tidak, saya disini.”

“Saya tidak mau tahu”.

…were some sentences he blurted out. And then his big fat body blabbed on the seat like a jelly (well, it’s too good to compare him to a delicious jelly) coming out of the mold because it’s so stretchy and rubbery that it expanded non-stop. And OMG, that tone. That f*cking fat face. And then talked to his friend about only-God-knows-what ‘system’ is not good. And then the way he glorified himself. And then slept with that f*cking annoying snores only fat people would make (no offense, but it’s true. They should do diet).

The worst possibility is, that he always do the same thing every time he got on the cruise just because he wasn’t able to get good seat and wanted a good seat with an ‘alternative’ way, which is forcing other people. FYI, the seat I meant is the one on the aisle, because I don’t like seats beside the windows.

Apart from all the things above, I just couldn’t understand how could he do that to a woman. Maybe he’s used to it. Maybe, people who came from the same place as him do the same thing and consider it’s common. That you just force people. Especially the ones that looks odd and out of place. No matter if they’re men or women.

My short and brief happiness broke to this lowly poor-mannered impolite cheat. In my most desperate thoughts, I would want bad karma for him, whatever. But even if karma exists and responds in the future, I wouldn’t know. I want to know what would happened to him because it made me satisfied that it’s a confirmation for what he had done to me, right away if needed, but I know that the knowing wouldn’t happen. I just feel sometimes it’s unfair, I can’t even keep happiness a little longer.

Thursday Thoughts: Online Shopping Experience at

By far this is the worst online shopping experience I’ve had.

It started out on last Friday (30 May), I asked for my AWB number via text message (they don’t put any e-mail addresses on their website, Facebook, or Twitter). The sms admin (let’s call him/her so) asked for my order. I replied again with the order number. And then here is what I got next:


The reply made me angry. I made the order on Saturday (24 May), they replied on 26 May with the total and bank account (through text messages! How convenient), and I paid and confirm back to them I believe not more than 10 minutes after I receive the first message. How could they say I haven’t give payment confirmation? Did they never check their account balance for once, between the 26th to the 30th? WHAT DID THIS SMS ADMIN DO BETWEEN THESE DATES?

And let’s say they receive my confirmation message, if they find my text confusing, why there were never a reply after that? Why they didn’t ask back, or simply ask me, if I already make the payment or not? Why is it so hard?
Fyi, there’s nowhere on their social media pages or official website that states how to confirm payment, is there any special formats, etc. We (online customers) should be the ones that are left with confusions.

I reacted to the message with rage. I even said if I can call the number because nobody answered their usual customer service number. No text message after that. Still with anger, I tried to call the CS number again. And this time, when somebody answered, I pulled every bit of my emotion out of my chest because I couldn’t contain it anymore. “Bilang sama yang ngurus sms, saya tidak mau konfirmasi lagi! Saya udah konfirmasi! Cek aja sms saya!” I don’t think I’ve been this emotional on the year 2014. I was so angry.

And then, a new text message finally came again, please see for yourself:



The second last message to this message is only between 30 minutes. What the hell is going on here? How can this person replied so fast this time, but he/she couldn’t do the same on the 26th?
I would call this message as an act of arrogance. It’s like saying, “Oh well, we’ve received your money (right now) so we’ll send your stuff express-ly.” And so that means my money that has come out of my account on the 26th and come in their account on the same day, never exist. The money has just came (and has been checked, and existed) on the 30th. What could I say, right?

By the way, 30 May was Friday. I ordered the stuff to be sent to my office address. Even the most stupid people in the world knows that office buildings are closed on Saturday. That means my order will still be delivered on the next week, which is Monday. So the ‘apologize gesture’ to send my order using express shipping isn’t really helpful here.
Besides, I will be outside my office on that week, doing business trip. If only the order was sent earlier, I can still bring the stuff to my trip.

I even sent a disappoinment message to one of their “directors” through Facebook, and nothing happened. No replies.

Of course, this morning when I came to the office, the package in question was sitting nicely on my desk.




Oh, so they do have an e-mail address! It’s a fun fact!

To this day, I still feel sad. I feel I’m being fooled. What have I done wrong so my early confirmation wasn’t accounted? What have they done right so they think they can ‘bribe’ me with a short sentence “we’ll send it with express shipment”?

I don’t want them to think that once I received my stuff, problem solved. Case closed. Everything’s back to normal. For them, it might be. For me, absolutely not. For once I want to listen to my heart and respect it, and so I will send it back. I’ll send the stuff back to the store, and maybe my heart would feel better after that. And of course, never again for the rest of my life, will I ever do anything with this unprofessional ” online store”. That’s when I will feel that the case is really closed.

Random Questions (from Makeup and Beauty Blog Poll Vol. 316)

Do you stretch?

Are you currently enrolled in any classes or training for anything?

Puppies or kittens?

Do you have any cat-themed makeup?
No, I think.

Do you think you’d make a good ninja?
Maybe. I like the idea of being fast and hard-to-catch. 😀

What’s your least used makeup brush?
Sonia Kashuk sculpting brush, the one with the weird shape for contouring your face.

Are you more cute or sultry?
Not cute but not yet sultry. Kinda more in-between (or confused).

Have you ever worked a job where you received tips?

Who wants to run a cat cafe!?
Never crossed my mind.

Have you ever won a medal or trophy for something?
Yes, just that once. It did nothing for my current situation, really.

Do you have any stuffed animals or dolls from your childhood?
I kinda had until I was in elementary school, I don’t have it anymore. It was a panda doll. 😀

How boring I am this year. *sigh*

I Feel Betrayed.

How does it feel, when you start your morning, and know that you have been set up for something? Something that of course, you didn’t know before. You think everything is going to be okay and you just do what you do. But then something came up and nobody has ever told you before about it. Nobody has ever discussed before. Just one simple “yeah, it’s not so important, we’ll tell her later”, or “she’s going to have to agree”. And how does it feel when you know that the decision is almost impossible not to be followed. Even more, it has been made just so some faces and reputation can be saved. Talk about saving something by sacrificing others’. Even worse, deep inside, they know the ‘plan’ is not going to be a hundred percent successful.

Talk about bad decision.

Knowing that you’re still an outsider.

Knowing that there’s still somebody out there, who would rather be a kind of backstabber, than have a gut to tell a thing right in front of your face.

Knowing that, in the end, you’re powerless.

How does it feel.

How should I feel?

Last Post on 2013

There’s always a very heavy weight on my shoulder and in my heart when it comes to visiting family relatives. Tomorrow’s the new year. Already set a plan with my brother to meet “some of them”. But just minutes ago I was having a flashback on I-don’t-know-what-year when I came to visit the same bunch and they made comments about my make up. How I managed to beautify. But also, found a way to harass me about my pimple bits that had only peeked up because of — well, I wouldn’t know — but there must had been a cause for that. Suddenly the memory hit me. I will never be good enough for them (or anyone, perhaps). Probably it would be easier if it’s just some strangers on the street that calls you skinny or your colleague you barely know thinks you look pale, but this is your family. They WILL see and find (and unfortunately, that is) more of the worse parts than anything else.

So my brother had to go to the meeting alone. But then I realized that he doesn’t really know the address (and I do) so minutes later I changed my mind and said I’ll go, but just because I don’t want him to get lost. Again, something hit me. Why would I change from not-going to yes-I’ll-go when I had the chance to curl up in my bed a whole day and not listen to crap mumblings from people you wish you’d make a good relationship with? I guess the answer was that I care about my brother. He’s not even a little kid, but sometimes I feel like I have to do something. And that’s why I decided to keep going with the meeting plan although I knew that there would be a huge possibility for me to listen to much more crap mumblings when we get there. I still don’t know what would be my reaction. At most, I might be angry and leave the place in a sudden, but I hope I wouldn’t have to do that.